5-0 got me pissed off .

November 19th 2011 . 

I know i haven't been blogging lately .

but i've been a bad girl , 

& a lotttt of shit has happened . 

I've got some friends over right now , so i'm gonna be short .

Everything's happened from,  me almost fighting this bitch 'cause 

I was meetin' up with this guy who she use to fuck . 
but i had no idea about her . 
Plus she knew he was meeting me there , & they aint even ina relationship . 
she kept callin' me a bitch , like screamin' that shit like a physco , 
everyone was lookin' at her like she was fuckin' crazyy . 
like , sorry bitch obviously you aint nothin' special . 

& that's exactly what i told her . lol . 

she shutup after that shit . 
#Jealousbitches

Also , yesterday morning , 

I was awoken from a knock on the door . 

about 8 cops swarmed my house . 

I can't say who . 

but they were looking for someone , &

 they thought they were hiding at my house . 

all last night , i had cops watching my house , 

a cop that had been at at house yesterday morning saw me 

going to Jlove's house , & followed me there . 

when I picked up chandler & Jlove from school , 

the Major was at my house with two other guys in suits .

to try to ask me more things . 

they pissed my mom off really bad , 

to the point were she wanted to sue them for taking advantage of me . 

they really pushed me to the point were I was crying

on multiple occasions . they never believed me 

when I told them I didn't know anything . 

luckily , the person they were looking for turned there-self in this morning . 

I'm just ready for this to be over . 

fuck bein' around cops . 

It's been cold as fuck lately . 

like seriously . 

but it's beautiful outside with all the leaves changing & shit . 

it's weird to think that this time last time last year , 

I spent it all with #oomph . thanksgiving , christmas , new years , 

all of it , up until may . fuck may .  

but really, i've been closer with my family than ever . 

Jlove pretty much lives here . lol . he's like the other bro i never had . 

I'm so protective over that kid . 

Oh , & how about todayyyy , 

I fuckin' backed into a muhfuckin' tree . 

oh welll . 

well , it's 2:22 am . 

I haven't really gotten a lotta sleep lately . 

soooo im ouut . 

 <3

Joints I flick , Bong raps I kick .

October 10th . 

So I just finished my first rap with Jlove .

I'm fucking excited AF .

I recorded it ONCE , & killed it . didn't even need to re-record anything . 

i've had atleast 10 people ask me to get on a track with them .

I mean , i've been writing raps for years , but Just had enough balls to record .

I picked Jlove up from school , & he was just like

"Today , You're Doing this shit . So , dont even say no ."

& it came out fucking great .

I havnt had butterflies like this since I found out what love an orgasm was .

& this just shows me , I don't need a guy , I can do this on my own .

It's being happy . & I'm in love with this shit .

My advice for everyone out there ,

DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY .

fuckkkk what people say . 

soo... Here it is... (:

( Sounds BEST with headphones . )

<3

There's more to come in the near future ;)

whattup famm ? (:

October 8th .

Welll , I'm on the way to dad's new gf's house .

Idk if I'm gonna like her or not .

The only thing I kno about her is that she's an attorney,

she's got 3 houses , she can drink , & she's blonde .

We map quested her house , & when dad said she lives on the beach...she lives ON the beach

...lucky bitch .

I'm just ready for tonite . We're doin' the octoberfest thing .

There's gonna be over 20,000 people , they even closed ocean boulevard for this .

Dads got us all VIP passes too(:

Gah I'm so fuckn bored , I didn't even get super baked ,

Just buzzed :/

& we're gonna be driving for a lil' whileee .

Well I'm at the festival . It's poppin' .

Drunk people everywhere, dancing there balls off .

I'm tipsy AF .

Thank Allah for spell check . Lmao

Okay , so I've had a jello shot , & two beers .

I'm sorry but I'm shwasted .

later onnn-

It's like one big huge house party . 
Thank god we're VIP , it's not all cramped up where we are . 

I've been getting free beer all night  :)

Dancing people everywhere .

& I've been dancing . Usually , I only dance dirty . Lmao

The only thing that could make this better is if I was stoned.

Too bad i smoked all my weed before i left Gmoney's crib .

I can't Stop laughin' at all the drunk who think they got rhythm . Lmao

Sidenote- all the girls here have like nooo ass .

It's so disappointing . bahaha

Otherwise, great night on ocean boulevard .

I dont give a fuck what anyone sees .
It's official ,

 my mouth is numb & I can't see straight . Im shwasted.

Maybe I'm TOO drunk ....I just told dad I blocked him on facebook . LMAO .

Ive never drank so much in my life .

Im tryin' to sober up .

KB (dads gf) is goin to get me a shrimp basket . Whoooo(:

...................................

So she came back 20 min later , drunker, with no shrimp basket . Whatta broad .

Me & Gmoney just walked on the beach , I've never walked on the beach shwasted ,

I actually fell in the sand trying to take my shoes off ,
 the sand was so soft . (:

^ me & dad after the festival, on our way back to kb's house .

driftin' downtownnn. top DOWN .

Next mornin' -

Boutta go get breakfast with the fam .

Didn't wanna get outta this huge bed ,

it's sooo comfortable .

Shouldn't of drank so much last nite.

But if your VIP & you've got no rules ,Then why not get slammered?

^kb

(dads new fiance' , ended up being the shiiiit . for a bitch who's got everything,

she's down to earth . )

greattt weeekend . <3

Please excuse my rebellious soul .

September 28th . 

Today's just been one crazy hazy dream . 

I blame it on the pain pills , truly .

I know I shouldn't have... 
I mean I wouldn't have... 

If I didn't crave love so much .

...#oomph came over today . 

We actually spent the whole day together . 

Just smokin' , laughin' , wrestin' & cuddlin' . 

Finally a cuddle session. <3 

...& of course my sheets are bein' washed right now. Smh 

As much as I don't wanna care , 

I care too much & I'm always gonna . 

The first cut is the deepest 

... & it obviously leaves a scar . 

Plus my moms gon' be like 'what da fuck' when she finds out 

... She'll find out when she reads this . 

I Love you ma dukes . <3 lol

I got to see my BrandiBoo today too (: 

I owe her one .

 Seriously , I needed that pick-me-up . 

& plus she found me a legit sack . I'm boutta go pick it up. 

I love that girl , She's the shit . 

& I honestly feel like I can come to her about anything 

& kno I'm never gonna be judged . 

We just so open in this fam. Lol

Damn , my fingers are glidin' across the keyboard . 

Smh - I'm on one three . 
 I be forgettin' n shit lately .  

Forreal , I got over 90 unread messages on facebook . 

& I knooo, I got an ass of unread texts.  

I'm slippin' lol . 

Also , Pmoe ... Pmoe got f l o w.

His new mixtape just dropped a couple days ago . 

& y'all needa check 'em out .

to download his mixtape click right churrr .

its truthhh . 
& then Add 'em on facebookk .

I shouldn't have smoked any spice today . 

Dave's not here , is just not for me . 

I Tripp testicles . 

Like , not a crackhead trip , but an emotional , cry-baby Trip . 

It just makes me think a lot . 

I needa just stick to the herbal . 

 

& yes mr.CudBud,  I blew you off breh . 

'What goes around , comes around like a hoolahoop' nigha . 

& you gon' learn that you can't get it when you want it . 

It's the other way around . (; 

Later on ....

So I'm at my usual gas station . 

my ma's puttin' air in the tires . 

Atta girl . 

Just picked up my sack from mah girrrl. 

I'm lifted blowed . 

& we just smoked a single J . 

I'm so happy , All smiles .

P.S - I hate when fuckbags don't cut off their brights . 

You fxckin' blind me .


 


I'm outttt . Busyy day tomorrow . 
ima be geeked up , & blunted the whole time tho . 
smh ...
<3

Tryna front when you see me in the club , 'cause you kno who i am .

September 22nd . 

This week started out shitty AF . 

but im over it , im livin' for me & my happiness . 

"I dont need nobody that dont need me."

woke up ina great mood tho , thank allahhhh . 

& Tomorrow's fridayyy <3

HOLLAAA !

still dont kno exactly what ima do , but ima do it BIG . 

just like brandi . lol

you know what ? 

Im so fuckin' thankful for the people in my life . 

forreal , like idk where i'd be without all the support . 

i've worked hard to get to where i am , & even though i've got a while to go , 

Shit , I'm proud .

 

Just fuckin' ready to get all my equipment , so i can get this music production shit on the road . 

'cause thats where i wanna be - on the road . 

makin' hits , takin' hits . 

I mean , how many white , female producer/rapper's you know ? 

exactly . 

I'll be Crack . 

summer's over ; fall back .

September 20th .

I haven't blogged ina while .

I figured since i'm jacked up & so full of emotion , i'd do it now .

I really dont know where to start .

ofcourse ima leave all the drama out of this , but in a nutshell;

Last weekend was fun af . lol

saturday I had a little party with the best :)

I was rollin' , so you kno i laughed my fuckn' ass off .

I puked , but i was a fuckn champ about it ,

I stood up , started pukin while i was walkin' , finished puking ,

& sat back down to finish gettin high af . hahaha

plus sunday , I got broke the fuck off proper . ;)

(not #oomph)

speakin' of #oomph ...

I really dont know what to say ...

We're not even the same anymore .

we do this all the time , back & forth shit .

it's so fucking old .

if im not a priority then FUCK YOU FAG .

ugh , i fucking love his dumbass .

but im not in love with this anymore ...

I'm just ready for a mature relationship .

a long lasting one .

or ATLEAST a relationship to get my mind off of my LAST one .

FUCK .

anywayz ,

pacman & jlove came over friday to record .

shit already sounded sick af , & he's not even done with it yet .

& i also love the fact that the track was created in my bedroom .

props . lol

jlove stayed the weekend ofcourse ,

so all we did was smoke , smoke , & uh...smoke .

then me , ma , & jlove went to waffle house on sunday .

so yeah , this weekend was pretty boring .

I plan to make this weekend - epically shitfaced amazing .

supposed to be goin' to the hookah bar with tiff .

but besides that , I gotta do somethin' big .

it's past due bitches .

imma lil' drinker, but tonight - fill my glass .

September 8th.

Sittin' here thinkin' .

Too many things goin' on inside my head .

All I kno is im done wasting my time ,

& adderall is gonna be my bestfriend for a whileee .

today sucked the worst , im just ready for the fuckn' weekend .

Oh ! i just realized , tomorrow's friday <3

shidddddddddd .

"Cuttin my all my losses, cause boy we never won. You only really there when you tryina have some fun. Gave you a taste of ya own med, now you say we done. Well thas coo with me boo, no suprises - you aint the one ."

imma be real ,

it's hard to convince your head to believe something your heart doesn't .

im atta loss , really .

everyone always tells me i can do better,

but there's only one him .

but when someone doesn't treat you with the respect you need ,

then it's not even worth it .

but everythings peachy,

'cause i got Me bitch !

& i got some good weed too .

lol

but wow , this weekend ... im gonna be single ,

feels so weird .

this should be interesting .

vinny . <3